I feel whole once again!

You may or may not have noticed my absence in January. This was due to a lot of factors. The first being a major depression which mostly arose from my work situation. I was really crushed when I learned about my new hours. It's hard enough to make yourself go to a job you detest, let alone go when your family is at home and give up everything you do together. This was the situation the "paycheck" put me in. I had been working in a call center for almost 7 years at this point. The mistreatment of the customers was getting deplorable. The level of service was and is bad from this company. Having to hear someone cry because they can't get service after we missed several appointments was more than I could bear. Couple with that the fact that after being in our present community for about two years and finally becoming involved in our local community taken away suddently unbearable. Dave and I were going to cooking classes, community meetings and church during the week. This was my only respite from an otherwise horrible week at work. I was asking friends to cross their fingers, pray, keep me in their thoughts that I would get a new job. I was sending the resumes, posting on job boards...everything I could. It was either that or I was going to end up quitting. Now I am not independantly wealthy so this could pose a huge problem in our household. Well what I am about to tell you can only be described as divine intervention. It also proves that someone is listening when you pray. I saw an ad for an admin position at a nonprofit. It was perfect, so I sent off my resume after talking to someone. I was thrilled when I was contacted by someone telling me about the position. The only thing they were unsure about was the salary. It was a lot lower than what I was used to making. She said she wanted to let me know up front. I told her I wanted to set up the interview and would call and cancel if it was a problem..after talking to my husband. Here's where the fun begins. I get to the interview and she thought I was calling if I was coming..oh boy ..I feel like I'm going to throw up. She says she will see me anyway. Next...do you have a copy of your resume with you....oh boy..um no because I thought she would have it. At this point I feel like a total ass....I'm going to have to put the old headset back on. Well she says we will see you anyway...WE! oh boy..have you ever been interviewed by three people at once? Not me...I talked too fast, felt like I gave dumb answers and couldn't produce a lick of spit from being nervous so my mouth was dry the whole time. Now comes the ride home mentally yelling at myself for screwing up the interview for the job I really wanted. YEARS and YEARS ago I was offered a job at a nonprofit, but couldn't afford to take it. It became one of those things I always regretted. Right up there with the dig I didn't go on in Mexico that a professor invited me on. My ex didn't want me to go...aargh. Here's where the divine intervention part comes in. I get a phone message regarding a different position at the same company. It pays more and is 9-5 Monday through Friday. It is casual dress...it's working with accounting, checking documentation and filing. HEAVEN. I met with the supervisor and almost fainted when she said, "When can you start?". I kept waiting for Allen Funt to pop out and start laughing at me. Monday was my first day and I love the job! A friend at work told me that I wouldn't have appreciated the job so much if I had gotten it at an earlier time in my life. She said I had to have a job I really didn't like (a dehumanizing one), I had to have met Dave and been really involved in things I love as a volunteer. If there had been no threat of losing all of this..it wouldn't mean so much to me NOW. That everything comes when it is meant to come. She is right. The organization I am working for is BCCAP. You can read about it here. I work with the Abbott program. It is so cool to not have to lie about where I work for fear of being pelted with stones. I will be posting regularly now PROMISE. Here comes the sun da da da da............ My rainbow